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Neurotic
02:41
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If I knew everything it’d be too hard to choose
I don’t know anything and still don’t know what to do
So I go off in my head again
If I had the motive I’d push to make it through
But I’ve debated and there’s nothing worth to prove
So I go off in my head again, I’ll be the same at tomorrow’s end.
I’ll hate me, then I’ll hate to hate
Alone in a room of friends
They’re hard to still relate to
Don’t wanna sink again
I know I could sit right here and repeat all the shit I do
Or I could go to some place I’ve never been to
I wanna go but I’ve got a will so vague
It’s all the same when you’re neurotically plagued.
I’ll wait, yes, I’ll wait
‘Cause always means always
Off in my head again
Anxiety parades and can be my only friend
And I hate mine, I hate mine, so I hate
Alone in a room of friends
They’re hard to still relate to
Don’t wanna sink again
While I love my friends
It’s hard to still relate when
I don’t find comfort in - knowing I could sit right here and repeat all the shit I do
Or I could move to some place I’ve never been to
I wanna go but will it matter anyway?
Cause it’s all the same when you’re neurotic, you’re neurotically plagued.
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Deviant
02:35
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When an urge kicks in again
I’m afraid as the thoughts begin
What if I don’t uphold my bargain to remain a friend
And find myself back there again
Keep a secret, play pretend
That I control myself and my desires do surrender
I’ve been waiting on the fence to see what’s right
Having nothing but a vice to hold me tight
But I saw it, and I can’t help but want it, with morbid eyes
And I know it, but I don’t wanna be a let down
If I showed it, you’d think I’m a weirdo
Perverse and void
A compulsive deviant
Appetite surfaced again
And I’ve been waiting on the fence to see what’s right
Having nothing but a vice to hold me tight
I feel like I’m a stranger when I decide
But I saw it, and I can’t help but want it
When her eyes tell me I’m perfect and so wanted
I saw it, I can’t help but want it, with morbid eyes.
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Cold
02:31
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just a little more time for my mind on my own
i don't even care where i have to be
i swear i'd even bail on my family
just a little more time ignore the chime on my phone
the blanket fell off now my shoulder's cold
a hollow shell of who i was in the days of old
i told a lie cause i want something to be
a riddle of sorts memorize and repeat
just a little more time and i'll be fine but i don't know
when i'll follow through with those plans we made
go out on one of our classic escapades
just a little more time i don't feel bad this decision i own
the fact is you're no longer priority
this relationship is toxic and bad for me
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Void
03:40
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If we keep it up then that’s all we’ll be
I’ll always be that way, I’ll always seek a new way out
When I see through
I’m in a constant haze, I’ll wait here if you want me to
If the worst of the world won’t take me
Would you show me how
To find a light beyond the sun
To find a light beyond the sun, cause oh they won’t take me
They won’t take me
If we keep it up then that’s all we’ll be
Too paranoid to fill the void
I’ll always be that way
Beyond the sun, always, ah, always
If the worst of the world won’t take me
Would you show me how?
To find a light beyond the sun
To find a light…..
To find a light beyond the sun, cause oh they won’t take me
Oh no they won’t take me
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Still
02:55
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Hold you up to a light
Your praise is all I would like
When infatuation arrives, I can’t hide
Your time is fine, I’ll sit so still
I know you’re right, change feels surreal
I see my pride cower to fear
I want much more than being here
A new way to view the same life
A glimpse made me come alive
When curious in a smile….
It means more than you know, to know I’ll still grow
Love too young to know, but we’re never alone
Love too young to know
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Expectations
04:44
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great expectations let me down again
blinded by selfish lust for everything
i think i should lie down again
desert plants evolve with time
I had a basket that i kept my things inside
I took it with me on a hundred mile ride into the desert this one time
great expectations let me down again
blinded by selfish lust for everything
i think i should lie down again
desert plants evolve with time
I got a canteen but i think it's running dry
vultures are circling the sky
And when you think you really know the man
He walks out leaves you high and dry again
Hyper aware of this staged scene I'm in
I break the 4th wall cause I can
For a reason I can't find
Stuck in the desert about to die
great expectations let me down again
blinded by selfish lust for everything
i think i should lie down again
desert plants evolve with time
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Waver
02:35
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Then I got a phone call
I always return
Fell into the same woe
With no excuse to burn
Will one trip off the wire I walk be worth the cost?
Will years it took to build us, measure what we’ve lost?
But I laid awake with you today
And wondered what my life is like alone
Am I afraid, or subdued?
With two paths what is right? I’m lost
I’ve watched my morals rot
And met my inner liar, the coward of my thoughts
And I’m not going anywhere, as long as I stall
If I don’t go anywhere, what’s true?
One waits for better days
While one wanders off, walking the other way
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Pretender
02:46
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I know you, and I know that you’ll be somewhere
Eyeing truth, that we would get here one year
So for now, don’t call me to blame
Don’t ask for your time
I don’t wanna know where it has gone, I don’t wanna know where it…
I see you and you’re the same as I remember
A smile true to the art of the pretender, but I know you
And I’ll miss walking for hours
And watching you blow me kisses from the shower, ooo
So for now, don’t call me to blame
Don’t ask for your time
I don’t wanna know where it has gone
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Storm
02:50
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Nice little city disrupted by storm
beautiful lightning her hand struck a chord
rational thinking says to stay indoors
but rain is exciting a compelling force
I run to the storm
climb up the mountain holding lightning rod
remember the feeling forget what you're taught
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Melt
02:49
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They say to me, you’ll get off the ground,
I want it, but wanted..
To say to you, I can’t be around
But when you speak, I’m drawn in
So I took the hard path today
And dissolved all my pride
Cause’ you melt me
We say it’s true, how could it not be
In our hands, we’re holding
A part of you and part of me
But loose grips will take us
Off and on, we opt to wean though
Off and on feels awful close to dying
Off we are but able tonight
Why off and on when I know that we’re so deserving
Are we ever on our way?
I lost a part of myself today
If your opinion changed
would you still love me anyway?
Are we ever on our way?
Still I took the hard path today
And dissolved all the pride I had
For a chance of all I thought we’d be
And after still ask why
Cause’ you melt me
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